It makes me sad to think that you will never be this way again. Your growing and getting bigger each day and I love that but part of me wants to keep you small forever. I want to savor every moment with you and make the most of these times we have. Your gummy smiles, the way you look at me when your nursing, your little hands and feet, the cute rolls forming on your thighs, the way you open your mouth when I kiss you.
I sat next to you and just watched you sleep today. I studied you – each little smile, each flicker of your eyes, every time you opened and closed your tiny fists, each breath. I took everything in and I cried, I cried tears of joy and tears of sadness, tears full of overwhelming love for you and tears of wanting you to stay this way.
I love you Amelia.